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Giraffes in Hiding: The Mythical Memoirs of Carol Novack
by Carol Novack
Spuyten Duyvil Press
2010
First
Collection
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"You have come to rest. You think perhaps this is my town or close
enough to the one I was walking towards, at least when the moon guided
me like a mother it seemed to be. I can’t be too fussy; I will die with
dust mites and sand crabs and there will be no home in death."
Reviewed by Michelle Bailat-Jones
A book is a kind of country, a landscape conceived and constructed by
an author out of words and images and ideas. Usually, but not always,
there are people moving about this created landscape, inhabiting their
country, and the book is, in that sense, a framework for their story.
Whatever it is. Whatever shape it takes. Readers, then, are visitors to
these fictional countries, tourists who are trapped, willingly, to watch
and listen and be engaged. To experience the novel landscape and the
story or stories it presents.
Like all travel, some literary countries feel less familiar than others. Giraffes in Hiding: The Mythical Memoirs of Carol Novack
is one such place—a country with atypical customs, startling creatures
and unknowable rules. No field has been cleared in this landscape to
make space for a small visitors’ airport. This doesn’t mean, however,
that the reader/visitor should turn away; nothing about this challenging
access suggests the inhabitants are hostile.
Thus emboldened, the visitor turns a first page and stands inside
this new world, huddled at the edge of…of what? Where are we? Are these
stories? Are they true? Is there a beginning, an end? Can we grasp the
language? All good questions. Let’s say we are standing at the edge of
an ocean (there are many fish in Giraffes in Hiding; the ocean
is a convenient and fitting image) and dotted out across the distance
are forty-two islands, forty-two worlds spread along a space-time
continuum and forming a mythical history of Novack, whom we must
consider the Goddess of this watery world.
These are islands of story, connected mainly by their geographical
proximity. Shallow sandbars do exist between several islands, allowing
for a quick jump across and back (of both visitors and several native
citizens), but finding a logical, coherent or linear narrative, finding
instant meaning within and between each new isle isn’t the point of our
journey into this uncommon world. This we must accept early along on our
trip, otherwise we are doomed to irremediable culture shock. A visit to
Novack’s world is about experiencing a texture, listening to a new
language, encountering unknown visions and images; maybe along the way
we will discover a kindred emotion or a shared and understandable story.
There is much, really, to find familiar here. Childhood frustration
and love and tricky relationships. Creative defeat and quirky
conversations. Sex, too. The people living on these islands have a
sneaky resemblance to people everywhere. And yet, as we draw closer, we
detect a separation. Language is used differently here, the past and
present are fluid concepts and the self is defined and challenged along
unfamiliar lines. A visit to Destination, for example, prompts a
series of unsettling questions: Who are we? Why are we here? Where are
we going?
You have come to rest. You think perhaps this is my town or close
enough to the one I was walking towards, at least when the moon guided
me like a mother it seemed to be. I can’t be too fussy; I will die with
dust mites and sand crabs and there will be no home in death. But now,
always now this town is different from then, at least my memory of soft
greens and blues with gentle angles, or so it seemed, seems. This town
is all glare with acute turns and sonic booms. It won’t hold me, rock
me, is neither mother nor lover. It has so few dimensions for me though
it has dimensions for the neighbors, I suspect. They talk about rules,
have so many they can’t keep track of what’s forbidden. Too many of them
stay indoors for fear of breaking a rule. The chandelier drops are
cameras. They don’t understand. They make more rules.
We feel here the texture of Novack’s writing—those long digressive,
unpunctuated sentences, the seemingly unconnected images, the careful
defiance in the first-person narrator. Her prose is what makes Giraffes in Hiding
an unfamiliar country; it is the ocean we must swim through to approach
each island and it is filled with surprises and whimsy (much whimsy, in
fact) as well as dangers and beauties. Here, a beauty:
One of you has felt me watching. After all these
years, I can feel you approaching, my soldier. I can feel you and I
cannot scheme. You are the one who stays away from churches. You are
the one who does not laugh at women, the one who has no need to watch
or listen. Do not approach, fair one. You are so close I can feel your
hairs growing. Your hands are feverish, palms slightly moist, empty,
open to touch, my soldier. One day, I catch you kneeling by your dying
mother, asking: please, please, I want my self back, take me . . .
back.
As suggested by the collection’s title, each island houses a myth,
and the archipelago becomes a mythology made up of forty-two different
Carol Novack’s and many Mothers and many Fathers and fish and starfish
and men and friends and other women. Some of these islands contain an
actual and complete memoir, like A With/out Q Without Self or Cluck
Cluck, while others ask questions about the shape of memoir, of
self-knowing, like "I am not who I think I am, or is it whom?":
Take me, no no transport me. My papers are attached, with
footnotes, headnotes, supras, infras, antes, and posts, all sources
clear, clear to go, in their proper places. See, I must go, have this
growing fear, no no, a chronic anxiety I will walk outside my house in
sleep, as usual, not know where I am, may wander about and turn up under
a stone not the same, no not, and perhaps I will kill or ravage; I have
this horror that the years have passed have been passed without
recognition by someone else, the passive voice as if I had never, no
never had learnt to decline my self, or perhaps the point is that I do
decline.
There is a long distance to travel back and so much extraneous
extravaganza, I think I have lost so many parts on the way, I forget
where it is if it is I, what is left, suspect I may be invisible, may
have already misplaced myself, mistaking my self for a metaphor, may or
may have, forget . . .
Pages are turned, stories are encountered, but a visit to Giraffes in Hiding
does not begin and end with such simple turning and reading. Each of
its forty-two islands invites multiple stopovers and renewed
exploration, consideration from afar and scrutiny of its smallest grain
of sand. In short, this is a fictional country which wants to be
considered on its own terms, a landscape where story and language are
given the freedom to explore their boundaries and be transformed.
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Michelle Bailat-Jones is a writer and translator living in Switzerland. Her fiction,
translations and criticism have appeared or are forthcoming in various
journals including: Ascent, The Quarterly Conversation, Fogged Clarity,
Cerise Press, The Kenyon Review, Xenith Mag and Hayden's Ferry Review.
She is the Reviews Editor at Necessary Fiction.
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Carol Novack is the former recipient of a writer’s award from the Australian
government, the author of a poetry chapbook, an erstwhile criminal
defense and constitutional lawyer in NYC, and the publisher of Mad Hatters’ Review. Fictions and poems may be found in numerous journals, including American
Letters & Commentary, Caketrain, Drunken Boat, Exquisite Corpse,
Fiction International, First Intensity, Gargoyle, Journal of
Experimental Literature, LIT, and Notre Dame Review, and in many anthologies, including The Penguin Book of Australian Women Poets, Diagram III,
and The &Now Awards: the Best Innovative Writing. Writings in
translation may or will be found in French, Italian, Polish and
Romanian journals.
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